1868: The night of my 11th birthday the earth shook and split apart. My family is missing, and everyone says they’re dead. No one would help me. They just looked at me like I’m a monster. I think they blame me for what happened. A nice man fed me today, his name is Tobias. He says he will take care of me.
1869: Father said he was working on my birthday cake so he let me end my studies early today. I went outside and there were some boys from the school, they threw rocks at me and one hit me. I have a huge gash that bled. They called me a freak and laughed at me. Father says that my pink eyes and white hair are a blessing from God. He says I’m his angel.
1870: Father took me to Harmony today. I hate how he uses me as a prop. The new church looks beautiful. I like it when everyone leaves and I can be there alone and by myself.
1870: The boys at school are always staring at me. They say disgusting things about me. They think I can’t hear them, but I can. Benny Harper said I did things with him that I never did. Father wanted to know why I was crying over dinner, I just told him I wanted to be alone.
1871: I forgot to cover up when Father took me to the market today. My skin burned and turned bright red. Some children pointed and laughed at me. An old Indian woman grabbed me and cut off part of my hair. As she walked off, she said that my white hair would bring her luck. I told Father but he just said I should spend more time praying.
1872: I was walking down to the river to do laundry when a group of Chinese surrounded me. They started asking me to cure them of their rashes and boils. I tried to be nice, but when I said I couldn’t cure them a man grabbed my hair and pulled me down. He started yelling at me in Chinese. I screamed. The new boy at school, Gavin Dorsey, ran up and pushed the man away. He took me back home. At dinner time he brought round the laundry I dropped. It was freshly washed.
1873: Gavin took me out to the sea today. He brought a picnic basket with delicious treats and a soft blanket to lie on. He said he loves me and wants to marry me when I’m old enough.
1873: Father was furious when I told him I was pregnant. I haven’t told Gavin yet, but I know he’ll do the right thing. Father called me a harlot, and told me to pray for forgiveness.
1873: I don’t understand my dreams. I don’t know why I’m so angry all the time.
1873: Gavin just laughed when I told him I was pregnant. He accused me of being a slut and that it probably wasn’t his child. He left town and I don’t think he’ll be coming back. Father won’t let me out after dark. He says it’s because of the Scalper, but I think it’s because he’s ashamed of me.
1873: I finally snuck out last night. I ran into Mr. Schrute. He had dropped one of his carved fairies and it had broken. I helped him clean up, and he told me that I was still beautiful to him and that it wasn’t safe to be out after dark.
1873: They killed poor Mr. Schrute. They say he was the Scalper and had killed Mr. Jackson and Mr. Truesdale. I can see his cabin burning from the top window of the church. Mr. Schrute would have never hurt anyone, he was always so nice to me. My dreams are getting more violent. I don’t feel well at all. I think the baby knows I’m upset.
1873: Every night father drinks too much and then beats me. He kicked me in the stomach, I think he wanted to hurt my baby. He said he was going to throw me out. Tonight I fought back. I grabbed the candlestick and threw it at his head. He fell, and the blood covered the floor. I set fire to the church and tried to make it look like an accident. I don’t know where I’ll go now.
1874: I’ve lost my home, my father and now my child. I have sinned, and God is punishing me.
1875: An Indian boy found me today. He says that it was prophesied that he would find me. He calls me White Doe.
1876: The medicine woman is a good friend to me. She told me that I have an important purpose for Kachewinach and the tribe. She told me that I could help him find an ancient temple.
1877: After two seasons of looking, I think we found what the medicine woman was talking about. She said we’d find the magic inside to get revenge on the people of New Opportunity. Today she introduced us to an army officer. He says he can supply us with guns if we can show him where the temple is.
1878: The voice spoke to me again last night. He promised me power to destroy. I made a deal with him. I will give him what he needs, and then I will have my revenge. My father killed my child, and now I will destroy everything he created.